New job has mentor and I on COMPLETELY different schedules. So annoying. It has been almost two months!!! I may be mildly annoyed.
My favorite alcoholic drink in my favorite form of food? Perfection.
Weekend away in a hotel? I see kinky fun in the future! No bitchy neighbors to judge :). I hope there is a giant tub and a great couch. Bring a few props or improvise? That is the question.
Now I’m a Dom to my numero uno man. This is a pain in the ass. I have no clue what I’m doing or, at least, that is how I feel. I read Q&A’s constantly from newbie Doms asking simple questions and I’m like “Duh” in my head.
So here I am dumbfounded. I try thinking, “Well. What would you like?” But that is useless because we look for slightly diff things as subs. Plus, he wants more 24/7 and that is very new to me.
On the plus side, there is less tension around the house. I know if I don’t tell him to do it, it won’t get done. At home workload is now 50/50. This gives me more time to focus on other, more bedroomy things (the part he really loves). I am actually surprised at how much structure he would like. Bedroom Dom’ing stuff I’m good with, but the rest OMG! I’m not saying I’m not willing to try, but whole new area. Honestly, excited to try but worried I won’t meet his expectations! And he is my Love and I don’t want to punish him! Serious Dom fail I know. Aspects of me definitely fit the role, but I must admit I have some personal taboos. I can be a sub to someone I trust no problem (all of two people I’ve known), but me in charge! I have a thing about forcing my will onto someone else. Of course, he is willing so it is not forced, buuuuutt I guess I have a past experience clouding my thoughts. Any tips?